I don’t know…
I’m a 19 year old male who lives in New York and is enjoying the relaxation between two semesters of college. Now, as any healthy male should, my mind has periodically come back and forth to ideas of sex and the female gender. Thus it has come to no surprise that I would search the internet for pornography, and get these impulses..shall we say, off my chest.
But, as this is the question that I am befuddled with- I find almost all aspects of sex quite disgusting from a third-person view; I just find the act itself debasing, the people who do it (while admirable individuals themselves) groan and moan in the most animalistic ways, and the whole act seems very much a disgusting act in and of itself. The same appendages/orifices that are being used for urination, waste removal, and such activities are being sucked on, licked, and otherwise coming into close physical contact with another human being.
Are my feelings echoed somewhere out there in the halls of this community? I don’t know whether to consider myself abnormal (I have somewhat of a normal-to-low sex drive and almost no sexual urges when I’m out and about doing the errands of the day), and I considered my virginity when I had it as something to be done simply so I could get it out of my way and go on with my life. That goes hand in hand of course with the fact that I never found sex to be pleasurable when I had it, and my mind strays to whether or not I should be worried about my mental state. (I have a few…disorders, shall we say, that I need to keep an eye on occasionally, though they do not impinge on my very active social life- too many friends to count and I’m going out later to hang out.)
I have actually come to call myself asexual (Wikipedia it; I’m not alone in my plight), and I’m wondering about input from you-all. (And forgive the complicated diction- I’ve read much more than many my age and am quite educated.)
(Which isn’t to say you aren’t. ^_^)